I Never Knew

Just the thought of you steals my breath,
I can't explain the hurt of when you left,
I thought we were eternal but I was wrong,
And it's hard to move on, hard to be strong.

Thinking about you just tears me down,
It kills me to know that you're not around,
I'm stuck in this battle, my heart and my head,
They're colliding with force leaving me dead.

You were the first, and maybe the last,
No future ahead, just a painful past,
My hearts on my sleeve, so much exposure,
I'm desperate, please, for some kind of closure.

Bestfeeling

This morning
you called me over.
you sat me down
and you put your arm around me.
you said, 'it's been a while,'
and i just smiled at you
because,
i missed you more
than you will ever know.
and being so close to you
once again
was just the best feeling

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go